Family Drama

I have had MAJOR family drama in my life this week. MAJOR!! So major that I am not sure yet if my relationship with my father, or my step-family will ever recover. I am at the point now though, that I don't care if it does. I'd love to work it out with my dad, but am not sure that I care to work it out with my step-mother or my step-sister. I also just don't know if our relationship is something that CAN be worked out with my dad.

My relationship with my dad has been strained for quite a while. I had just thought that we might begin to work on it, when I had a fight with my step-sister. A bad fight. I let my dad know what happened, so that when it was brought up to him, he would know my side and maybe stand up for me. Instead my dad said he would not get involved. He said that we were both adults and he would not get in the middle of it. His wife, my step-mother called me cussing me out. I let him know about this, and he told me not to worry about her. He has talked to her.

The thing is that I asked him to call me. He has not. He has only contacted me through e-mail. I feel that he is taking her/their side. I feel that he does not care to repair our relationship. I get most of these feelings by seeing what actions he is choosing to take. I never asked him to get into the middle of our fight, I just wanted him to have my back on a very personal matter. He says he can't call me. I know that is not true. He can call. He HAS called his "New family", but he has yet to call me. I am his daughter. I am his real family. But he is choosing them over me.

Sigh......

This is so hard. I am not even telling half of what happened, or going into the nitty-gritty of the details. It's ugly! I just wish my dad would wake up and see what he has done to US! See what he has done before this fight with my step-sister even started. I wish he would be a man, and treat me like I deserve to be treated.

For now, I have decided that I am done. I am over it. I am finished. IF my dad wants to have a relationship with me, he is going to have to make the next move. I have made all the moves that I care to make right now.

Maybe someday............